Uhhh. You need to review the Zionist origins. You’re going to be shocked when you see they explicitly stated the need to expel and murder the Palestinians…. It’s there for you to see. Simple search. I can even recommend books by historians like Noam Chomsky and Ilan Pappe (both Jews). Preferably you read Palestinian perspectives like Rashid Khalidi and Edward Said.
Just because you’re a Jew doesn’t mean you’re a Zionist. But Zionism is undeniably a genocidal ideology with only one purpose and that’s the elimination of Palestine and Palestinians. If you can’t absorb this very basic fact then it’s you who is being dishonest and ugly.