What a disgusting way to live a life, always claiming to be what you are not and always scared to admit who you are. You cannot name a group of people anywhere in the Middle East that the Ashkenazi can claim to be related to because the Ashkenazi are not from the Middle East! There is nothing that the Ashkenazi can tell us that they have in common with the people of the Middle East! You cannot show us a single Ashkenazi DNA result that has even a tiny trace of Middle Eastern ancestry, can you? You have to find a way to deal with your delusion but one thing for sure is that you must get out of Arab land!